walk in faith with grace

The better part of three months ago, I found myself standing in a place where the road diverged into two separate paths. I could look ahead and see so much light cascading through the trees on one path and the other path looked cold and desolate. I took one step towards the path that seemed more familiar to me. Cold. Dark. Empty. Just like my soul was deep on the inside. Then I felt a miracle push and a whisper that urged me to change directions and for once in my life, allow myself some of the beauty that this life affords me.

Begrudgingly, I listened to that whisper of what I now know was my guardian angel. I took a very deep breath and stepped onto the path that was shining with all things good. Everywhere I looked the beauty was bold and everything was flourishing in the most dynamic, breathtaking way. I felt the warm of the sunlight hit my cheeks and warm tingles began to take over my body. It was affecting me from the inside out. This beauty, this awe-inspiring beauty, was breathing new life into my empty soul.

As I walked out the journey, I learned to be still and listen. I learned that this path I was on was designed just for me at just the right moment in my life. A year ago, had this opportunity presented itself, I could, with all certainty, tell you that I would not have been ready for the path I was called to travel.

Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge. – Eckhart Tolle

I was very uncertain as I began walking into this new space that was being created for me. For me? Let me say that with conviction.

A New Space Was Being Created Just For Me!!

But why? The question seems kind of silly now that I have completed Phase l of my program but it didn’t stop me from asking it over and over again the first few weeks. I couldn’t quite understand why I was taking  a hold of my lapels and staring myself in the eyes and screaming, “You deserve this. You NEED this. You are going to choose to live. You are going to make changes for good this time. You WILL be a changed person. You WILL change your life and the lives of others.” 

Excuse me? I was going to change not only my life but the lives of others? You’ve got to be kidding, right? How would I be able to have a residual impact on my own life let alone the lives of other people?  I had no clue the power of my own being. And power in the sense of doing good, inspiring, touching lives, making changes… powerful, beautiful, lasting. But I know I wanted to challenge myself to reach this monumental goal. It was there, at the top of that impossible mountain, waiting for me to make the climb. All I had to do was make the decision to try.

And so I did.

I started the climb with very little confidence in my ability to reach the top. How in the hell was I going to do this? I fail at everything so it is surely the only outcome that I can expect from this too. “You are going to hit so many obstacles along the way and you will want to stop, like you always do. Your heart cannot take anymore pain for it has bled out so many times and the bandages are not big enough to mend it one more time. You think you are cool by doing this, don’t you? You will never succeed!!! You will find a way to sabotage yourself so that you will never get to stand at the top of this mountain and proclaim victory and see the beauty that will steal your breath away. Why try? Failure.”

That is what I heard repeatedly as the old tapes played over in my head. It was dizzying. It was paralyzing as I stood at the foot of this mountain unsure of myself. I stood in fear of so many things. Until the warm whisper came once more. “You are capable. You are strong enough. You can do this. You can walk in faith with grace. You deserve this. You can stand at the top in a victorious afterglow. You just have to believe in yourself more than you ever have. You have to try, Tricia, you have to try. No one can take this from you anymore. You are in charge of your life. You are in charge of the quality of your life. You don’t have to sit stagnant anymore. Climb.”

And so I did.

With every step I took, I stripped the negatives from my soul.  With every step, I shred the the pain that suffocated me for so many years. With every step, I began to peel off the layers of self-doubt and self-deprecation. With every step, I was creating space for the new me to emerge. With every step, I could breathe just a bit easier with pride in the personal growth that I had worked so hard to achieve. With every step, my authentic self was being born again and as I neared the top of the mountain, she was shining with blissful promise that this was her new life. Her beautiful life. There is so much power in that statement. A promise of a beautiful life is what you are given once you have decided to make a change and take a chance on yourself. When you realize just how much strength you possess, you are bound to change your life and the lives of others. It’s your choice to make. Choose happiness. Choose beauty. Choose YOU. Choose faith. Choose peace.

I did. I chose and will always choose to walk in faith with grace.

Are you ready? TRU™ is waiting for you to click it & choose change.

Be grateful for what you have and mindful of what you can become.
– Beth Brownlee