{mothering with heart}

Some days, there will be tears. Some days, the answer will be no, even after the tenth time asked. Some days, my opinion is just that, my opinion. Some days, you will face more disappointment and disapproval from me because of your attitude, disrespect, words or actions. But this much I know is true – I love you deeply. You are my responsibility. You are given freedoms and choices because I think you can handle it and make the right decisions. Some days, you will rebel. I get it. This gig isn’t always easy for you or for me. But what I know is that I make decisions, as your parent, not your friend. I make decisions that I feel will be in your best interest, no matter how trivial. I make decisions that are sometimes painful for me because I know it hurts you. But some day, I know you will truly understand the level of love I have for you and I don’t take this role, of mothering you, lightly.So when the tears dry and the heart mends, and even during the tears and hurt heart, please settle snuggly in the truth that you are my beautiful child, my treasure and I will remain your biggest fan, cheerleader, and leaning post. I will hug you through the rough times and love you through all time. Your happiness matters to me so don’t think I am being too mean for making unpopular decisions. Trust that I want what’s best for you always, in all situations. I’m your mom and I’m not perfect.

Keep growing. Keep learning. You will fall. You will make mistakes. You will make the wrong choices sometimes. I still do. But always remember, no one will be there, with open arms and love, like your momma will be. I love you (even though right now you think I don’t).

::Art by kelliemarian::