It’s a very, very mad world

Over the years, I have often felt like I do not belong in this little town I grew up in. I have often felt convicted to pack it all up and move away to some place that matches my ideals, beliefs and the person I am at the core of my being. I used to love this little town. But it is perfectly clear that I really don’t fit in. This morning, I woke with anxiety in my stomach over things that have been going on within our school district, specifically our crooked administration that consistently perpetuates lying, bullying, piggish behavior and we wonder why there is so many issues with the students in our district?

Then I read, time after time, comments on our local newspaper page that are so vile, filled with hatred, bigotry, intolerance, which makes my skin crawl and makes me ill to my stomach. I have never wanted to move more than I do today after reading so much hate and uneducated filth. This town is so closed minded and “redneck-ish” and backward thinking is not conducive to growth and love and tolerance and kindness. When people run in circles it’s a very, very mad world. Open your mind. Open your heart. Stop hating so much that it is literally disgusting.

People seem to have no regard for humanity anymore. And as much as I wish to move my family to a bubble town, it doesn’t exist. There is no escaping this  nonsense, this ignorance, shallow way of thinking/acting. I don’t just read it from locals; all I have to do is peruse facebook/social media and the hatred, prejudice, and inequality is force fed, front and center. From bashing the president to bashing those who are different. No, there is no escaping it or changing people from their hateful ways. I don’t know why I am shocked sometimes because it seems it has become the norm but I do sit here with my jaw dropped and my stomach in knots from what I read/hear on a daily basis.

I am responsible for my reactions to their bile spewage and I don’t do nasty. I don’t do rudeness. I don’t do unjust actions and words. I do kindness, love, tolerance, acceptance. It is who I am. I can’t change that nor do I want to and I can continue my own personal crusade to create peace within my own life despite the chaos that is alive and well in the world today. But that doesn’t mean that I am not affected, because I am. It hurts to read it and see it, especially from people that I have called “friends.”  I am a better person for keeping true to my authentic self and not allowing evil to penetrate my soul. I am good. No matter where I go, I am good. And I will do good. I will be good. In the meantime, my biggest and best defense is prayer.